OVER YET NOT

When he left I tried to be brave

he said he needed to 

re group

and go home

I thought I would die

I was calm

but I was not

I cried

I was told he would

be back 

I saw him 

again

and

he asked me if I 

I had a good holiday

of course I did not

I could not

for years he had been a silent

post 

in my life

silent yet there

hidden

but not excluded

I decided to change

my life

to change my body

I had enjoyed 

sex too much

with 

him

I had to 

cut my body up

improve it

make it virginal

locked up

to

keep other men

away

I love this man

it is over

yet I know it is not.